The TRUTH Sets FREE

The Trust Sets Free

Excerpt paragraphs from my Book: My Descent In Hell and Flight To Heaven: from page 244&245.

(pg244)  Getting my strength back to walk was a step-by-step process. The time came when I was ready to walk out of the two-bed ward I had requested to be moved into from a solitary ward. I was very excited and was so grateful I had legs and I could walk. I realized how blessed I truly was. I could have been brain damaged. So many people had said it, but it only seemed to truly hit home then. GOD had not only given me my Life back…

Nurse Helen wanted to escort me on my first walk to the full-length mirror. I still was not sure why I had to do that, but I knew it was important as it was Dr. Johannes’s orders. The walk down the hall was the most fulfilling and joyous walk I had ever had. The other patients in the larger ward seemed surprised to see me walking, but I was just enjoying my ability to walk. Then I stood in front of the mirror. I gasped and asked, “Who is that?” With her hand on my shoulder nurse Helen whispered, “That is you, my dear.”

(pg245)  I stared at the young, yet old woman in the mirror. I saw two bony skeletal hands attached to twig-like arms that reached up and touched an equally bony bulging-eyed head. As I saw the bony hands touch the oversized head, I felt my hands touch my face. It truly was me! I stepped back and burst out crying out of sheer shock, horror, and shame. For the first time, I saw what I had been doing to myself all those years. I had always seen a big, fat pig in the mirror. Now I could see myself as I really was. I wondered how I had never been able to see the skeleton figure before. I suddenly remembered the pale, thin, frail, and sad-looking reception lady from the hotel where I had that Christmas Eve experience. She had survived Auschwitz, one of Hitler’s concentration camps.

I was sobbing as I said, “Oh GOD, my ABBA FATHER, I am so sorry.”

MY LIE from the Mirror’s Reflection and ALMIGHTY GOD’s Undeniable TRUTH:

The excerpt from my book above explains the first time I was able to leave my hospital room, having come out of my comatose state. This part of my story, of me standing in front of that hospital hall mirror, immediately created a massive soul-wrenching shock of reality. I had a decision to make. Either I acknowledge the obvious TRUTH in front of me, or I deny, that it is not as bad as what it looks. I was at the most important crossroads in my Life.

I chose the undeniable shocking Truth staring in front of me. An immediate soul-shift took place within me. This was truly a miraculous event. Within literal seconds, I experienced a complete 180˚renewal of my mind. I no longer wanted to look or even be that graven death-skeleton staring back at me in the mirror. Acknowledging and repenting for this self-destruction, is the victorious revelation that I still stand and walk in, for over forty years now.

How was this miracle possible? As I had looked in the hospital hall mirror, the reality stared at me. I was a very sick death-gray malnourished starving breathing skeleton, clearly suffering from severe malnutrition with self-abuse burn marks all over. This was when the TRUTH hit me, like lightening running right through the very being of my soul. I was not only shocked but absolutely pained to see what I had become. I was horrified and disgusted at my own reflection! What had I done to myself?

I had been diagnosed with fatal Acute Anorexia Nervosa, and Body Dysmorphia Disorder [BDD] from my teen years. I had always scoffed, scorned and rejected this.

Why acute fatal Anorexia?

I had been fluctuating between 26kg-to-30kg during my teen years up to this mirror-moment in my twenties! With each passing year this self-deception grew worse. When people would try reason, telling me that what I saw was a not real, but a deceiving lie. That I was mentally ill and needed help or death would find me. I scoffed at them, becoming more bitter, deceptive and manipulative.

Why Body Dysmorphia Disorder?

This was where instead of seeing myself of how I realistically was, a full skeletal near-death acute anorexic. I saw myself as a grotesque hideous obese fat-oozing blubber pig. I believed that everyone was lying to me! Yet it was I who was deceiving and lying to myself.

I tried to reason, and find a logical, scientific explanation, of why that when I stood in front of that hospital mirror, how that at that split-second moment, Heaven’s TRUTH came crashing down into me! This was beyond my human understanding. For a decade I had denied being an acute fatal Anorexic with BDD and now, in what felt like seconds, I saw myself as exactly what I was. What had taken place within my mind, my being, was a complete miracle. I say this because for all the previous years, I had always seen the TRUTH as a lie and the lie as the truth.

On asking HOLY SPIRIT, how and why did this sudden realization of TRUTH happened to me at that particular moment as I stood in front of the mirror with nurse Helen? The answer became clear when HE gently reminded me of what had happened to me before I woke up in hospital. That I had been dead on arrival (DOA) at our local hospital from a very well planned, executed suicide.

HE reminded me that during CPR I had been out of my body looking down from the ceiling, when suddenly I was gripped by the torturous clutches of fiery death and hell. How, on experiencing hell, I somehow heart wrenchingly realized and Believed JESUS is LORD, and so I cried out HIS Name. What I do know is that I had been rescued out of that fiery pit of hell. I had miraculously been saved by JESUS. GOD ALMIGHTY was giving me a second chance of Life.

I had also somehow, miraculously, literally undergone a 180˚ turn around within my very being. I went from being an embittered hate-filled evil conscious slave of death, to being a completely Free JESUS filled, GOD conscious daughter of worth. Even though I was still in a comatose state, after JESUS rescue of me, I was so very much alive!

It was also in this comatose state where FATHER-GOD affirmed me as HIS beloved daughter, embracing me in HIS LOVE, confirming that I belong to HIM. II am Loved! I Belong!

It was still so hard for me to try to understand that I had been dead in the pit of hell. Now I was alive, back on Earth, in CHRIST JESUS’s FREEDOM and LOVE, I had never experienced before? I had done absolutely nothing to bring this turn around. All I had done was cry out to J-E-S-U-S.

I immediately began to look at the world, at absolutely everything with new eyes, a new heart, a new mind, becoming a new person. I literally went from being a stubborn, rebellious, self-destructive hate-filled person; to being an affirmed, beloved daughter of GOD. It was with this new child-like discovery and receiving of the LOVE of GOD when the TRUTH bolted right through me, before the TRUTH revealing mirror. Breaking my chains of slavery over my deceived sick and enslaved mind of many years from which I lived.

I now looked with JESUS’s TRUTH, which had set me FREE! I was able to see myself as I truly was. There was no longer any self-condemnation, or self-hate, or desire to inflict abuse, hurt, pain and punishments on myself anymore. Instead, before this hospital hall mirror, I cried out in repentance. I immediately asked JESUS to help me. I took responsibility right there in front of the mirror and fully surrendered to HIM, to whatever HE would require me to do.

The TRUTH had set me free, and even though I was a little nervous, even scared, I was determined and willing to take all the necessary steps, to get out of the danger from literally being on deaths door where I could drop down dead, to now being safe and full of Life. First being my doctor, Dr. Johannes’s, instructions and requirements, even if it meant that I go for psychiatry treatment again! As my book explains, he gave me another chance yet again, and allowed me to go home, as his outpatient?

I was under many watchful eyes. I never ever allowed my heart and mind to turn back to that lie, and I will never allow it. I had gone from listening to the father of lies, to listening and working with the FATHER of TRUTH, the HOLY SPIRIT of TRUTH. HE flooded me with HIS gracious loving Wisdom, which gave me the strength and boldness to receive and acknowledge and take responsibility of this TRUTH. This TRUTH has really and truly set me FREE.

And now, four decades have past, since that mirror miracle moment where JESUS’s TRUTH and FREEDOM embraced and clothed me, and still does.

The TRUTH is essential for us to live the absolute Abundant Life that our LORD JESUS came to give us. HIS death, resurrection, ascension and gift of the HOLY SPIRIT, was so that you and I could walk in the Freedom of HIS TRUTH and GRACE.

🙏  Let’s Pray:

Oh LORD JESUS, Thank You that You are TRUTH and GRACE. By Your HOLY SPIRIT,

Our LORD, may YOU open our hearts and souls to any lies that the father of lies, the devil, has deposited and chained us up in.

May YOU cause all lies to be exposed by YOUR TRUTH, and may YOUR LIGHT also expose the darkness holding every lie. Shatter every lie into a million pieces, never to be put together again!

May YOU Embrace the precious person praying and trusting YOU for strength, giving them the boldness and sound mind to see and call out these lies.

Fill them with YOUR affirming LOVE and PEACE.

May Your TRUTH our LORD, set them FREE, bringing a complete renewed mind-shift and change, withing them.

May YOUR knowing presence of embrace, be with them as they choose to walk this new Life of YOUR TRUTH in Victory, bringing them FREEDOM.

In Your Name CHRIST JESUS, I pray.  AMEN